faithful

Funny how things get stranger each day, that the more you strive, the harder it gets. Each time you try your best to climb up that ladder, it gets tougher yet you know its worth it to climb all the way, for the pleasure of the fruit that you will taste is amazingly awesome!

I'm at this point where every part of me is being grounded, sharpened, molded, kicked around to discipline. It's just not a momen to enjoy, yet when you've pushed with a purpose that leads to your destiny, to know that you've passed a certain test feels so good. Yet to know that you've failed in some makes you sad. Then again, the awesome part about this grace-filled journey is that another chance is given for you to be a better. Not just about being better, that everyone would notice you, being being more like Him, and being a better steward the things that are placed in your hands; your time, your heart, you being a house.

I remembered watching a show that a team of people would do a huge make over over someone's house. And the makeover was amazing! Everyone was so happy, it was something that they couldn't imagine anyone could give for them, it was beyond they could ever dream of. The father of the family said that he felt reborn. Likewise, I find that salvation is somewhat the same. It was something beautiful that was given, that feels like a makeover. An extreme makeover. You're changed from the inside out and you are reborn. It's a new place, a new clean, awesome place. I doubt I can ever explain what it really feels like as the illustration mentioned. It's like you've been staying in a run-down, burnt and destroyed house and then someone takes you away and do a makeover in your house. when you come back, you come back to a new home that really belongs to you, and no one can take away, ever. And its free! The only way you'll ever lose it is you don't take care of it, it'll turn back the same again. That's why you can lose salvation, as you can lose your own house.

I've learnt that I can pass through any test, but if I don't remain a good steward of it, then I'm missing out the whole point. It's not just about passing tests anymore, it's really learning to grasp whats behind that test. Cause if we never got that, we barely passed at all.

2 Thessalonians speaks about not being weary to do good. Wow, that, I really need to remember.

Things do get complicated as one grows older, meet new people, new experiences and new disappointments. People say that it's so much harder to change an adult's mind, which is true... cos they get more stubborn :P. But I still believe that when you're older, you still can be teachable... if you're not so big headed for it. There will always be younger people that will outdo you! (I've got younger friends teaching me stuff in Uni, man! Haha) But I will always want to make it a point, that I'll have my heart soften and strong for Jesus to change me each day. For though in my imperfection, He still use me as I make myself available for Him. What more can He do through me as I get better in Him?

I will always remember to stay simple at heart, not cynical, critical, judgemental, yet sophisticated in my mind, not naiive, not foolish, fully aware of my surroundings. I will always have to be reminded, that all things are STILL possible through Him who strenghtens me, as time runs out.

It really still is.

do you still believe Him?

1 Thessalonians 5:23-24 - Now may the God of peace make you holy in every way, and may your whole spirit and soul and body be kept blameless until our Lord Jesus Christ comes again. God will make this happen, for he who calls you is faithful.

to sharon

I
MISS
YOU
SHARON!!!!

living like an owl

Note that the title says that I'm living like an owl, does not mean I'm an owl. Too beautiful to look like an owl. (oh, head getting bigger.. what has Singapore done to joyce?!)

It's 4 am in the morning and I'm up trying to study. *Note* trying to study ok! At least there's some effort there. Though, I would admit that it isn't very productive. Haha, but I'm enjoying myself. Odd yet so true.

Well, the year is almost coming to an end. So, I'm beginning to wonder if I have achieved much for this year? I'm beginning to see how goals play a huge factor in my life, how reaching this one goal is important... and it can really be determined by how much time you put into it.

Church has been awesome. The one thing that keeps me going while I'm here in this crazy University (haha!) is church really. If it wasn't for His presence, and His assurance, and the awesome people I've met, I think I'll go bonkers. Haha. But it has been so great! There's a new zone and I'm a part of it as well. They've got the craziest bunch of people, ever! Yet so much on fire, so much in love with God and a real passion for the people. :)

Mom and Dad coming this Fri! Bro also coming! WooHoo!! This means; GOOD DINNER!!! Haha.. sushi and seafood.. here I come!!! I miss my dad lo, cos he hasn't visited me yet. I'm wondering if he's still taking care of his fishes.. haha

Exams are around the corner!! It's mad I tell you!! Over here, you really gotta learn to catch up! of course not by comparing yourself with others... gotta learn to refocus fast and not dwell upon your failures. Yea man! Thermostat.. not thermometer!

I've learned so much while I'm here, and I'm growing to love the place and the people and the Physics! Haha! But I still miss you guys! Angeline, Bev, Fei... all the way in the UK... Sam, Von and the worship Team. Ling Jeremy Tyler and Zephyr! My bro!! my Dog sammy!! Mr Singh! hahaha so random. I really miss you all man. Frontliners.. Rawr!! ACTS29!!!!

OK OK La. distracting me.

must study

Econs Rule!

"It's good to not have choices in the exams. That way, you will not have any opportunity costs" - Econs Lecture

bloggers

everyone has got so much to say in their blogs. i dont seem to have that much. hrm...

sometimes i find myself wasting my own life away clicking and clicking away to different blogs... sometimes i feel like a busy body. this is one habit that i should kill off.. i've got better things to do in life.

yet there are those handful of blogs that im only willing to read

when time seems so short in life... you begin to wonder if you're doing whats right.. is God proud of you when He sees what you are doing now? that's a good question to keep you at your feet all the time... keep running!

How awesome~

Funny how the topic of this blog has got nothing to do with its content! Anyway, I'm just waiting to get in for lecture so I thought I should just blog to let you all know that I'm alive and good, and still having lame jokes but getting better at it. I've met my match at church and his name is Benedict Yeo! Sigh, so lame his jokes and I don't really know what else to say. Whats worse is my Math Lecturer. She cracks a lame joke but it's like part of her normal conversation. So if you don't listen in class properly, you'll miss all her jokes. Haha! Cool man.

I'm feeling so super tired yet so alive on the inside. I've learnt so much while I'm here, I cannot imagine how much more I'll grasp in the three and a half years to come! I'm excited! It's not just in church that I'm learning all that I need to learn, but elsewhere as well as you continue to walk in faith!

Coming here has helped me realised that everything really boils down to love, that without love life is really nothing anymore. And it's not just love for people, but love for the things you do even when you don't feel like it, or even when you feel like a failure in it. It's learning to see things in a different perspective and when you just learn to do that, it really turns out to be possible. Maybe not the best, but it benefits you for the long run! What am I really talking about? I'm talking about things like chemistry... which i dread. hahaha! But yea! If I keep studying it with a positive mindset that it's possible to overcome it, I'll love doing it. So that goes for you people who says you're not cut out for this and that. Well, yes we may not be a natural at certain things, and neither will we have immediate passion for certain things but that's okay. I agree that we're all unique and we have our strengths, and while we should focus on our strengths we should build up on our weakness as well. Come to think of it, a lot of the things that I'm doing now are not what I'm naturally good at. But man by His grace, I'm able to learn to do things and eventually, I fall in love with what I do. let's just say, when you really love God, you can't help but to love others and to be a better person even when you don't feel like it!

Okay! Ten minutes more before lecture starts. Exams are in exactly a months time! I'm excited yet, I'm in the most pressured time right now. Woo~

Alrigteyyy ciao people!

cheesy

man, that was by far the cheesiest post ever. hahah
ok ok,
got a long day ahead for me. tests are coming up so soon! btw, dont you just think that layout is cute? Couldn't resist it!
btw, a huge hello to Angeline wee who is all the in the UK!! Who finally has a facebook with the wrong spelling of her name. tsk tsk

okieee gotta goooo!!!

Keep going

bruises and wounds
found as i stumbled
upon the rocks on this narrow road
as narrow as it is

discouraged, troubled
face on the ground
searching for hope
what seem lost

looking around
many lying on the ground
given up, lost
forgotten all thats worth

close my eyes
a light i see
that broke the darkness
of my soul in me

fist clenched
head lifted high
your endurance my strength
your cross my reason

dust off the dust
that wipes off my vision
fighting against the current
that beats me down

focused onto you
the rock that lifts me up
running this race
again and again

stumbled and fall
by another rock on this narrow road
again i stand
and run this race

for its worth
the cost and the pain
for the joy and the strength
the love that radiants, forever.

Love, Where is your Fire?

Love, where is your fire?
I've been sitting here smoking away
Making signals with sticks and odd ends and bits
But still there's no sign of a flame

Imposters have been passing
Offering a good-feeling glow
But I'm holding out for what you are about
An inferno that burns to the bone

Some urge me to be temperate
Lukewarm will never do

`Cos I, I wanna blaze with you
So I'm holding my heart out to you
Holding my heart out

So I stand, handing out torches
Speaking words that are lamps to their feet
`Til the time when you come and I'm whole and we are one
And the fire in me is complete

Some tell me to be moderate
But lukewarm will never do

Now I, I know I'll blaze with you
So I'm holding my heart out to you
Holding my heart out

Then a doubt comes to lie at the back of my mind
That I'll offer you me and you'll politely decline
So I hasten to mute it
I'll shout and rebuke it
Away

-Brooke Fraser

lack of update.. lack of sleep

sorry for the lack of updates. but im utterly tired. feeling all giddy... dizzy.. ya name it. and ive got tests to study for. my mom said that i go out way too much.. and im like .. WHERE GOT! and she went.. "HAH! You can tipu (lie to) everyone else but you cannot tipu your own mother!" hahaha yea that made me laugh.

okay then people!! I'M OFF!! ciao

p/s: it was really nice coming back home again. it was my recharge. haha! time to push on!!

Woo hoo!!!

"Lord, to whom would we go? You have the words that give eternal life. We believe, and know you are the Holy One of God." - John 60:68-69