radical life

There are so many things that are continually being filled into my heart every single day of my life. Every choice that I will make, I begin to see the outcome, may it be fear or may it be out of faith... So many times I contemplate sharing my heart because I wouldn't know what others would say. Many times I take a step back in being proud of what I love because, simply because, it feels that not many really wants to hear me... but I'm reminded today, that some people do want to hear; not my voice but really God's voice.

I've been in Singapore for the past 6 months or so and it has been so fulfilling. I feel like I'm in Bible School but I'm not! Coming here has helped me realised that God will not remove all my problems, but He gives me the power to overcome through Christ Jesus. Coming here has taught me to love God, and love people fervently. Here, God showed me His heart.

I just had a chat with Derek just now. It's his birthday! Happy birthday Derek! But it was so fruitful talking to him and I am always amazed at how God was beginning to use the people in Brunei in a normal youth group. We don't talk so much about it.. sometimes we really just don't have to talk about it. Our lives became our amplifier. (Good sentence huh!) Going back to Brunei opened up my eyes to continue to be humble, to continue to love people more, to continue to have a big heart no matter where I go and what I've achieved in life. Leaving Brunei leaves me with one promise, that God has Brunei in His hands. Hanging out with Jeremy and Ling and the rest of the leaders were amazing. I'm learning so much from them and they're becoming my inspiration.

Leaving Brunei reminded me how God has really brought me so far. I can never appreciate it or be grateful enough for what He's done through me and in me... a transformed and changed life... not renovated life. The people that I've met, the people that I've built friendships with, the people that I've chosen to trust; I can only really Praise God for people that are willing to give the best years of their lives.

This is the new year and we always think about our resolutions. Mine is really simple. There could be more but most importantly.. I want to be radical. I want to love in a God level. I want to be a leader... not with a title but with a purpose and with a focus to please God and serve man. I don't want to be better, I want to be who I am made to be. I don't want to be nominal, indifferent...

therefore there's only one desire of mine... to always be radical for You...

I love You,
My heart is for You,
My desire is Yours,
Radical always,
Burning brightly,
For You alone..
My heart will ever sing,
For You alone.


No Longer I,











but Christ that lives in me...